Monday, January 26, 2009
I think there is some stress in my life right now that is testing my ability to not eat because I am stressed. Our state legislature is cutting education funding dramatically and it will effect my staff and our organization. I am alarmed at the foresight of our governor and legislature.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Small thing? Not for someone who has been overweight all her life. Crossing your legs is like awesome. I feel so slim when I cross my legs.
I was able to do that this morning because no longer do I have that huge belly that gets in the way. I have always been able to stand straight legged and touch my toes because I am so short, but painting my toenails has been a challenge for many years. I would have to bend my knee and paint behind me. You can see that picture. So it is a great day.
I just need to have patience in the Onederland and give myself the pats on the back that I need. One added picture is of one of my precious grandsons wearing a hat that I knit for him. He is one of the important reasons I am changing my lifestyle.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Anyway, I had already decided that if I didn't lose, I was not going to get discouraged, BUT that is a half a pound over two weeks because I didn't lose anything last week. So, take my own advice. Drink more water! I also think I will try to get in two exercise sessions on the weekends from now on.
You would think my body would be burning calories just to keep warm. One of my colleagues announced that she and her family tested the 42 degree below zero temp by spitting on the sidewalk and it froze solid in 3 seconds. Now that is SCIENCE!
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
Now that I am back in town, I will go to the Rec and do some real exercise. Wednesday weigh-in is just around the corner.
Continued. . .while at the rec center I watched Oprah while I biked. She was talking about her "new life" series and how people who have lost a great deal of weight have gained it back and are ashamed to carry on. I think that is an internal fear that I have. My husband tells me to convert that fear into a motivator to stay on my target. I had decided two years ago that I needed to exercise to become more healthy. I had hoped an added benefit would be weight loss. It didn't happen and I want to tell you, I worked at it hard.
A healthier me!
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Not that we are holier than thou, but I read some self criticism in our blogs and not so much self "woe is me". From my viewpoint, we are pretty touch on ourselves and the attitude is that we want to be healthier and that is why we chose to change our life styles.
If you wonder at the comments, Mom is not my mom but my "sorta ex" sister-in-law. She is a wonderful support cheerleader. She has known me practically all my life and she knows how much obesity has hurt my self esteem. I have not been married to her brother-in-law for almost 23 years but I have remained very close to his family.
I had a wonderful chat with my daughter this afternoon. She was cleaning her closet and offered me some of her 16s and 14s that are now too big for her. She has been going to the gym faithfully and I know she works hard at keeping herself in good health and shape. I didn't give her the best of genes and her father was 6'3" with a large bone structure. Anyway, she is thinking that some of her professional clothes will help me through the spring and summer. I wonder where I will end up in the clothing department?
It is snowing in such a beautiful way this evening. No wind, just constant flakes. My cozy slippers and knitting are calling my name.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Copy of my e-mail:
"I joined this group to listen and sometimes add if I felt I had something to say. I have my own blog and have some followers from around the world who are fellow bandits. We communicate regularly and I have learned much from them. With all due respect, I don't think a "fill" or "less of a fill" is the answer that some of you need. I never hear any of you talk about exercise. I go to the rec six days a week to exercise. I am a busy person, working full time, but exercise and eating correctly are two things we all have to do if we are going to be successful. The band is a tool to help us eat less not the answer to weight loss. I suppose after I vent, I should leave the group and not submit my thoughts again. I too have been thinking this group is a waste of time. Attitude is so important. I travel to Sioux Falls to the support group at Sanford because the leaders are motivational and the bandits are too. I was banded on August 27 and I have lost 44 pounds. I am not special and I am not unique. You too can lose 1 or 2 pounds a week if you exercise, use the band to tell you when you are full, and believe in the whole process. Excuses don't get you anywhere. If you have a problem with PBing and you think it is a problem, then you have a doctor that needs to hear what you have to say and you need to stop second guessing the problem. Small bites, some foods aren't tolerated, some foods are a waste of high calories and shouldn't be consumed everyday just because they taste good, and we all need to chew more and eat more slowly. I have gone on enough. Getting a lapband is a personal choice, no one made me do it. I wanted it and I will continue to have a positive attitude and surround myself with those sort of folks. If anyone is interested in some tough talk, feel free to e-mail me, otherwise I will keep my mouth shut. Sylvia"
Saturday, January 3, 2009
I went to the Rec early today because it is right after New Years so everyone has made a promise to exercise. It was busy but some of the regulars were hanging in there. I rode the bike for 30 minutes and then walked on the treadmill for 10 minutes. It feels good. Can't believe I am saying that. I have to work harder now to get my heartrate up there where it will burn some fat.
It is a great day to be alive! I am listening to the last of my Christmas CDs and then I will put them away until next year. We have put some decorations away as well. Need to get back to normal so that I can hit the road hard on Monday.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
I have decided to read the Bible over the next two years. It would be the first time I have ever done that. It is on my bucket list. I also want to make certain I write thank yous to people who give me gifts or do special things. I think that e-mail has become too convenient for me and I need to make a better effort to say thanks.
I was watching a television program tonight about Obesity in America. It featured a woman who had once lost over 111 pounds and had been honored on a Richard Simmons program. Since then she has gained all of her weight back and again some. This really scares me as they were discussing the genes and fat cells she had and how her body fought her to get back. I called Vince into the room and we discussed my fears. I forget that with the band, one is not starving the body as she was on a very low calorie diet. I just have to remember to eat sensibly and let the band tell my brain that I am full. I wonder if I will ever lose the fear. Perhaps that fear is a good thing.
I added a picture to the slideshow of me, last night. The slacks are the size 16 I just found. I do have to work on the fat around my middle. More sit-ups!